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Today I realized I prefer somewhat rare bandom pairings instead of the more popular ones. Like, I like Frank/Gerard and Brendon/Spencer, but they wouldn't be my first choice. ONOH I wouldn't hesitate a second before running off to read a Gerard/Grant Morrison or Ryland/Alex or Bert/Quinn story.

It's not even that I've read so many stories with popular pairings that they've become repetitive. Even if there's a really original idea, I'll still try to find something else to read first. IDK, it's really weird.

In My Blood like Holy Wine (Gerard/Mikey, Frank/Mikey, Frank/Mikey/Gerard, Gerard/OMCs)

This is the second* Waycest fic I've ever been able to finish reading and really, really liked. I love Gerard's and Mikey's insecurities towards each other, and the misunderstandings, and Gerard's jealousy, and Frank's fear of coming out. Awesome story.

* For the record, the first Waycest fic I've ever liked is Ampersand which is written like an essay interpreting one of Gerard's poems and is absolutely amazing.

One of the things I love most about bandom is the amount of fic written about the awesome bandom ladies. So I decided to post a list of my favorites (which everyone has already read, but whatever).

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I have this thing where I love how Mikey pronounces the word Bunny. I don't even know, it's just so endearing. Consequently I look for videos where he talks about his pets and rewatch them five thousand times in a row. Anyway, ( here are a couple of my favorites )

So these are two plotbunnies I got like half a year ago. Back then I was hoping to maybe write them as actual stories, since I didn't have anyone to describe them to and couldn't get rid of them any other way. But since actual writing clearly won't happen, I'm just gonna post it here and hopefully forget about them.

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Exactly one year ago I fell head over heels in love with bandom. A couple of weeks before that I'd read

roga's P!ATD primer and was discovering the joys of Panic GSF fanfiction and stuff, but it was all pretty casual and no strings attached. I could still easily switch to Sherlock stories or Inception stories or whatever I was into at the time. But then I read

harriet_vane's Forever, Now (which is still one of my favorite bandom fics ever and I've re-read in an embarrassing number of times) and decided I should maybe look for some primers because I'd never even heard of MCR before. The next thing I knew, I'd spent two days straight looking at pictures of Mikeyway and that was that.

Also apparently yesterday was the anniversary of Danger Days? Wow, talk about impressive timing xD

Um, hi! In case you were wondering, I'm not dead and haven't disappeared off the face of the earth. I was just either absolutely swamped with school work (seriously, the amount of homework I'm supposed to do this semester is enourmous) or procrastinated by spending hours of my life on tumblr and hated myself for it.

Anyway, I needed some cheering up today (because school sucks) and the best way to do it is obviously by going through my bandom pictures folder. So now I present you a picspam with the overall theme of bare legs (it seemed like a good idea? Also the majority of the pics is hilarious).

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Wow, how great are the changes made to Delicious? Very, very great. Especially since now tags which contain the symbol / don't work at all.

And this is why Gabe is my favorite :D

I feel really stupid for admitting it, but I don't know how to watch fanvids. There's probably something wrong with me because everywhere people keep admiring vids and gushing about how well made they are or something like that and I just don't see it. Or rather I don't know what I'm supposed to be seeing.

There are two kinds of vids that I do understand: those which are parodies (or just humorous vids in general) and those which have a coherent narrative. I guess that when watching a parody I'm supposed to compare it to the original and laugh at the differences. And following a narrative is just like watching a movie, I can manage that.

But what do I do with a vid which is just scenes from a source material cut together and set to music? What am I supposed to focus on? The music and/or the lyrics of the song? The way the music supposedly correspons to the visuals? (And what if it doesn't?) Should I remember the context of the scenes in the source material or should I just and think about why the scenes are presented in this exact order?

I have no idea. Probably because my relationship to music is weird and difficult to explain and because I just don't see the point of such vids. Maybe someone can explain it to me?

Today I was trying to find pictures of Mikeyway and cute babies (or cute little kids) to get inspiration for a story I'm not writing since, like, March. There were none, but I kept looking for it and thinking there had to be at least one. And then I realized it was all Gabe's fault, because there are tons of pictures of him with random cute babies, so it was like every other guy in bandom had to have them too.

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Ha, suck it, strange terminology and incomprehensible tutorials, I managed to finish the Dalek cloth today. I know it's far from perfect, but I made it with my own hands and I'm fucking proud of myself.

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For the record, I was using this pattern.

So today is the first day of my summer vacation, i.e. I can do something completely unproductive and don't have to feel bad about it. Consequentely, I have no idea what to do. Well, actually, I would love to be able to watch Second Coming with Christopher Eccleston and Lesley Sharp, but I can't find it anywhere. Like, okay, it is on youtube, but I still have trouble understanding Eccleston without subtitles, so this isn't an option.

Anyway, the solution was apparently to try knitting a cloth with a Dalek on it. Obviously.

The problem is, I am pretty bad at knitting. Like, I can maybe knit a scarf. If it's one-colored and not too long because otherwise I'll get bored. And that's it. So the Dalek pattern isn't exactly easy to do for me. Especially since the instructions are in English and any tutorial videos on youtube are in English as well and it's almost always English knitting, whereas I can only do Continental and I don't understand half of the term used in the tutorials.

Any knitting pattern in Russian would be very helpful, but the problem is that knitting communities and fandom communities don't intercept there as far as I know. Like, there are people who participate in fandom and also knit (or stitch or whatever), but they do those two activities separately. So, the only pattern I'll be able to find are boring and non-fannish and I'll get bored with them after five minutes.

So I'll have to figure out how to do the Dalek cloth on my own. Or, more realisticly, ask my mother who's far better at this stuff than I am. Although this would have a side benefit of having to explain who Daleks are. Well, we'll see.

Sometimes I miss being interested in a fandom which isn't RPS and which has a clearly defined canon. And sometimes I don't because stuff like this happens:

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Seriously. SERIOUSLY.

I've spent the last 15 minutes alternately squeeing at their adorableness and thinking about how Bill calls Gabe boy, but Gabe calls him man and what that means in terms of their age difference and then my mind went DE-AGED GABE \o/ and now I desperately want a story about William taking care of a five-year-olf Gabe and just. AWWWWW

So, this ( video )

I've watched it an embarrassing number of times. Seriously. Gabe smiling and being charming and talking about boobies and Bill demonstrating his socks and Ryland being his usual delicious self. So I was sure this video couldn't possibly get any better. Yeah, apparently it can.

How could I not notice Cory Monteith suddenly appearing in the background? How? And where's all the foursome fics about them bonding over being so pretty and so tall? I can't even.

And okay, I can understand why I didn't notice Cory before. The moment I see Bill and Gabe standing near each other my brain shuts down and all I can do is stare and flail and stare some more. It took me like, a month to notice Patrick in this picture. But still.

Today's procrastination technique involves:

1. watching CobraCam (apparently, Ryland is not only entertaining, but also pretty)
2. failing at watching TAI TV (Bill is very, very pretty, but every time he opens his mouth I'm about to die from second-hand embarrassment. Someday I'll write a post about which bandom people make me die of second-hand embarrassment and which don't and how that relates to how much I like them.)
3. thinking about that idea of de-aged Gerard (which doesn't go anywhere since there's no one I can talk to about it)
4. thinking about maybe listening to MCR's Revenge (I very rarely listen to music, so the fact that I liked Danger Days and The Black Parade enough to want to download another album is a pretty big deal for me)
5. sleeping and eating huge amounts of unhealthy food

I guess I'll have to at least try to be productive tomorrow.

If ever have children (I probably won't, but whatever), I can't expect them to have the same native language as me. They should be able to speak the language of the country they live in best. However, they should speak my native language at least a little bit, at least so they can talk to their grandparents.

I've been thinking about stuff like this for a long time, but only now I realize that non-immigrants don't. There's just no reason they should.

Sometimes I think about how much my identity is based on the fact that I'm an immigrant. And what I would have been liked now if ten years ago I haven't left my native country.

For some reason, Gerard in this pic has always reminded me of Camus.

~~Are there no Gerard as an existentialist philosopher fics out there?~~

I've suddenly realized that the way I see bandom is pretty similar to the way I see Shakespeare's plays. I am not an expert on Shakespeare, far from it. Actually, I've only ever read Romeo and Juliet, Hamlet and The Tempest and two of those were requirements for class. But that's not what my realization is based on anyway.

I once saw an awesome - well, I can probably call it a mashup of Shakespeare's most famous tragedies with a basic premise of a talk show or something like that, I don't even remember any more (the part I do remember is the kiss between Macbeth and Richard III xD). Anyway, while I was watching it, I suddenly noticed that Romeo wasn't as deep or interesting or engaging as other characters. And I don't mean it in a bad way, I love Romeo and Juliet. It's just that given a choice between Romeo and Richard III or Hamlet or King Lear or Macbeth or whatever, Romeo would pale in comparison.

So that's basically how I see Panic. It was the reason I got into bandom in the first place (well, I was browing through Delicious and noticed there were a lot of long AU fics which is usually enough to lure me into a new fandom). But then I discovered other bands and Panic, while still being my favorite to read about, wasn't as interesting any more.

While I'm making this silly analogy, can MCR be Hamlet? xD

I've noticed recently that my fanfiction reading habits became the opposite of what they used to be.

Normally, I like re-reading stuff. Not only fanfiction, but books as well. My actual definition of a 'favorite book' is 'a book I enjoy re-reading more than five times'.

Then there was a period of time when I couldn't read anything I haven't read before. It was pretty - uncomfortable isn't the word I'm looking for, but I can't find a better one. I mean, normally when I read fics, I pretty much know how it's going to end. Pairings are noted, so I know who's going to end up with whom. And if it's a romantic or fluffy story, there aren't going to be any unusual twists. Well, mostly. I generalize. But during that time, even this wasn't enough. I couldn't handle any suspence at all, even the good kind. So I kept re-reading stories I'd bookmarked on Delicious. And before picking up a new book, I had to look up the summary for it, read a couple of reviews, familiarize myself with the plot and the characters etc. and only after that I could start reading.

And now it's the complete opposite of that. If I start re-reading something, I have to immediately stop and pick something else. Because I - Well, if I re-read a certain scene in a certain story, I know how I'm going to react. Like, the scene's going to make me smile or become nostalgic or whatever. So it's a pretty good tool for controling my mood. But lately, this doesn't work. I don't react the way I'm supposed to any more and I don't even know why. So I have to keep finding new stuff to read in the hopes of accidentally stumbling upon something useful.

This post doesn't have a point. It's just that I am so weird sometimes.

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